:'(

Hmm .. another day, another story .. but first, the truth that i want to confess; im getting a lot more rebellious now .. i dont know why .. but, everytime when i feel irritated, i just wanna scream .. i dont even know .. im really in an unstable condition right now .. mentally .. and its all because of the enviroment right now .. im feeling like fate is being so cruel .. to not let me have him .. and the thing that goes around my head is WHY ? why ? i dont understand .. i want to love him again .. but why cant i ?!?!? i miss him .. i just need him .. i dont need everybody else .. i just want Iric Dubblin beside me again :'( .. why is everybody being so unfair to me ? why am i living this life ? the past is always haunting me .. i have to admit that i cant forget him .. all i can do is cry .. i cry when i miss him, i cry when i need him .. like now .. and i cry when i rewind back the past .. i just dont know what to do .. im not perfect like any superstars .. im not popular in school .. I wish i have never let him go .. i dont know i can suffer like this .. he's my precious boy .. even more valuable than a gemstone .. even if he's a but rough on the edges .. but i can shape it .. :') .. i promisa that i will change him .. when he's back with me .. i always think of him .. i will never forget the times we had together .. just, please rewind that time back now ? :'(