I've learned something in my life :)

Hey guys ? Zzup ? hehe, im kinda bored here .. -__- weather getting hotter .. its like living in hell now -.- but i know Hell's hotter than this :O .. haha .. I've learned something from all of my pain and sorrow from the breakup and waiting for him .. Its just like waiting for a dead tree to produce fruit again .. :/

   I've learned to forgive and forget :) .. Last time, i just cant except the fact that were over .. i know how stuck-up i am that time .. Now, i learned that there's no use waiting for a guy like him .. like what my friends say, He's USELESS .. I think i've made a fool of myself by crying tears out for him .. haha, i know one day that im gonna laugh about all the stupid things i've done ;)

   I personally think i'd rather love someone that's perfect like Andy Biersack even if he dosent know than to love a useless guy like him .. a womanizer, and everything thats bad about a guy all goes to him .. Yes i know it feels good to have a first date and kiss, but sometimes you've just gotta let go .. thats life .. now, i can finally let go of him little by little .. Thanks to my friends and God .. He healed my heart by letting meet an amazing guy like Andy .. i dont care if im that desperate .. As long as i can take my mind of him for a while ..

  I've been stressing myself so hard now lately .. scholl supposed to be great but for me its like hell .. at home, i just cant find peace .. When im outside, a can feel a tinge of peace .. i used to smoke, drunk, and do bad stuffs .. in other words, killing myself slowly.. but now, i can top all those things .. i feel that there's no use in doing those things .. my weight go down drastically that time .. but now, even if im getting fatter, im healthy ;)
 
   Hehe .. if i got more story then i'll tell you all kay ? for now, gtg byee!