the most sweetest day everr

Awwwwww ! today was just like a fairytale .. and aritok juak juak molah ku sedar that there's more to him than meets the eye .. apa yang lamak tok ku sangka, SALAH !

   the 1st, ku sangka nya sik PRO main badminton .. paduhal, nya jak yg rilek nangkap bulu tangkis ya .. aki gik terkepai2 tauk sik ?? heheheheh .. p best dowww mai ngan nya .. and ku pun perasan cgek. lamal tok ku sik pernah nangga nya senyum dpan ku, p kak ku ngga nya senyum eh, CAIR bis ku !!! awwww .. lam aty ku mdh: kenak laa kau apat mpuan kdk aku ? xD

   2nd, he's SUPER FAST dooo ! hahahaha .. ku nangga nya main bol nak, lajuu nya lari eh >.< ndak ku maok berkepung ngan nya .. hahahaha .. awwwww ya nang hotsetap akuuu :D

   3rd, aku nang SIKTAUK yg nya ada 'pantak' ehhhh ! bgi aku mun lakiey da pantak kacak bh .. honestly, i have no idea yg nya ada pantak ehh .. ku nangga nya bkak baju tyme nya main bol .. lam ati ku DUHAL .. hahahaha xD p nya kurus kereng -.-

   4th, he's an darn awesome kisser :3 hahahahahahahahh xD

my dear, i love you !

remember my badboy ? well, things didnt work out so well until we have to take our separate ways .. but, im gonna tell you about my old time crush .. 

    I remember that day .. when me and my friends just hang around on a stairway, eh kakar biasa jak ! susah .. daktok .. mk org lepak bah .. kakya, da biak limpas k motor .. ku nangga muka nya .. eh, ensem wak eh ! bolah dikatakan sebulan nya jadi pujaan hati ku .. ku selalu nangga nya  limpas .. dh ensem .. puteh .. awwww .. p tyme ku lowm tauk sapa nya sebenarnya ..

   Dah bpa bulan ya, ku sik nangga nya gik .. ku pun rasa hampa .. p cdak lakiey knl nya .. ku tyk lha sapa namanya .. alu cdak nya mdh namanya wat .. ku pun oww .. kakya, ku bruk tauk yg sebenarnya nya bisu .. aku nang sik cayak .. nya perfect bh bgi ku ! but, nobody's perfect bh .. aku pun try mok lupakkan bnda ya .. after bpa minggu, ku da ngga nya gik .. this time  nya selalu lepak rah taman .. ku sik juak lalek gilak .. p xtauk lah bena ka sik, lamak nya lepak cya cdak kawan ku mdh nya mala layap ngga ku .. aku buat derk bab ku sik suka nya gik bh .. 

   kakya, incident tok lah molah ku ngan nya gerek .. hee .. tyme ya mek org lepak rah rumah thomas .. ku ngga nya di depan pintu nak, alu ku mdh ngan kat daktok: kat !!! wat datai !!! .. time ya ku ngan kat pun gila2 kan nya bh .. tyme ya kat mabok .. so ku mengambil inisiatif utk kakar ngan  nya .. ku suka ngaco nya .. exen ku mdh, ko jadi gerek ku k ? nya 1st nang heren bh ngga ku .. ak just 'playing friendly' bak kata org .. p sikit demi sikit .. ku pun asa suka ngan nya balit .. ehemmm

   pada suatu malam, aku di hospital .. check-up paru paru ku .. every month .. tetiba jak ku ngga mcj ku .. nya indh text ! hee appy ku .. dh ya memperkenalkan drik la mek org .. nama benar  nya nang kacak ! Zechariah Samuel ! aaaaaawwwww <3 mesej punya mesej, ku pun ter-fall in love ngan nya .. alu laa gerek mek 2 .. sampey nektok .. nya seorang penyelak ! huhuh .. hahaha .. walaupun di mata tak org nya sik perfect, p bagi ku, he's totally perfect ;) tok lah 1st time pujaan hati ku jadi gerek ku .. dream come true bh .. i lovee him ! :D

Badboy/Laling/chinta mek ! :D

Hahahahaha ! panjang lawh title kue ya .. p di sebalik title ya eh, kompom tak org sik cayak betapa susah mok dapatkan biak tok .. >.< aku ngaku ! hahahahah .. (btw, muka nya lam gambar sik kacak eh .. p REAL eh, tok ku cta)


  This is Maling .. or his real name Aley .. but i usually call him LING .. hee .. this story is also long lah .. hahahah .. the lil bro to Thomas :) .. Beofre he asked me out, he also had a super huge crush on my friend .. but my friend rejected him .. at that time, i was not interested in anyone( also i have a crush on Thomas) hehe .. Selama nya 2 gerek eh, aku lah tunggul akayu, ubat nyamok nya 2 .. hahahaha .. that time i never even payed attention to him .. yes i know, he's HOT (dont know about you) but nahh .. 


  After 1month they broke up .. but i can see he still love my friend .. he always do something for her .. i only feel sorry for him eh .. but no love yet ;) .. dh ya nya gerek ngan biak kecik .. Mentut namanya .. part ya lah ku sakit aty gegilak .. mala jk sik layan gerek nya ! dah ya gerek dirampas nganok org .. buduh ! bpa lamak nya 2 .. ku pun siktauk camne laki ya tahan juak ngan mpuan dakya eh -.- ..  then he want to end this reltionship .. then i never expected this to happen .. he suddnely aksed me out like this : " err, Nurul (they used to call em by my 1st name)" so i looked back and said: "yes?" then he said: "if i ased you to be my gf, will you accpet that ? " .. my eyes popped out instantly .. i thought he never asked me .. haha, after all, he used to date all "hourglass" and "model-potential" like women .. why would he choose me ? i just said: "hmm, i'll give you the awnser tomorrow" and left ..


   That night, i feel like im in a dream .. but, my mind says:"hey, just give it a try" .. hehehe .. The next day, its raining .. but we continued at a hut near the park .. so, all of my friends and his friends know about this .. and keep on bragging to see us both like, holding hands, hug, or even a kiss .. i was like: what ?!?! i havent accept him yet .. and suddenly, he kneeled in front of me, and said: "will you be my girlfriend?" all of crowds go wild with their YERRRR NURUL, YERRR MALING, STEADY POK, PADAH JAK I DO SIA ! i was embarassed and just said:"emm, on jak lah" .. hahaha .. so, that day was our 1st date, a rainy day .. cun juak tyme ku mbk sweater .. so we shared .. i cuddled him dehh ! >.< all of the other "party people" has their own partner ;) .. it was sweet eh .. when i got home, i feel like awwwwwwww ! hahaxx, but i didnt kiss him .. yet 
   
   The second day, uhh .. our school held its sports month .. me and my buddies was getting ready for practise .. before i went to Kath's house, i bumped into him .. and he said: "hey, where r u going" .. i just replied : "to kath's house" and left .. the butterflies in my stomach keeps on growing .. haha, then Kath said, hey, "ur boyfie's joining us today .. hope you dont mind" .. i was like: WHAT ?????!!!!! MALU LAH AKU !!!!!!!! .. Eventually i didnt run that day .. hehexx :P


  The here comes the sad part .. he started ignoring me .. he never talks to me until the time that i wanna go home .. he sends me and gave me a kiss .. but, day by day, i realize that im drifting away from him .. yes, we do break and make-up again .. but, it seems that he dont wanna give me his entire heart .. i know and i saw his past relationships and how it ends .. but, im not gonna break his heart .. i guess he dosent trust me yet .. its ok :')


  After 2months of On and Offs, we broke up, real time .. i was frustrated .. for one week, i didnt see him .. anywhere .. i started to miss him .. i regretted everything that i have done to hurt him .. but, for me its too late .. then one day, i saw him .. while my head is feeling a bit tipsy because i over drank my vodka, but i saw him .. it just sent me tears to my face .. he looked at me and slowly walk towards me .. and i run to him and just gave him a hug .. i cant stand being alone anymore .. luckily, he replied my hug .. i was so desperate that time .. i need him .. then, i didnt remember anything .. I woke up, and realized that im in his arms, at his house .. just me and him .. he said: "you drink too much" .. i cant carry on and continued to hug him .. i murmured:'please dont leave me, im sorry i didnt do anything to work out in this relationship" .. he just said:"i forgive you" .. and he gave me, one last kiss .. before he leaves for his hometown .. that last kiss meant everything to me .. 


   After he left, he never contacted me .. except for Thomas .. He told me that actually Maling has a wife-to-be .. he was going to get married, but my mom refused cause they were young .. I was a bit scarred about that .. but i just smiled .. Then, a soon as im in a brink of giving up hoping for him, he came back .. he called me that night and told me: "hey, i still love you, you know ? i never wanted to leave you .. but, something made me leave you .. i never intended to let you go .. i suffer cause im loosing you .. i feel like i wanna kill thomas because he was saying that youre his new crush .. for you, i would kill my own brother .. cause, i dont wanna loose you anymore .. and if it takes to give up my life, i would .. for you .." Im shocked ... i asked him: why do you always think about yourself ? you know how i felt when youre not with me ? HELL .." He said: well, im gonna ask you this .. and im surely sure, that this will be my last proposal to you; will you come back to me ? and be with me, forever ?" i said:"Are you kidding me ? bpa lamak dh ku tunggu ko sebut ya ! yes"
   
  And from that day on .. i never even broke up with him .. wow .. a whole month .. he always put a smile on my face .. even if we fight .. we shed tears for each other .. he cried for me when he knew that i was slapped by my mummy .. and i cried for him, when hear his cough .. yes, the truth is he has an illness .. that made him short tempered .. no matter how many time he hurts me accidentally, i forgive him .. and he will cry cause he's been mean to me .. but i only say its ok .. after all in this relationship of course we have to face many problems right ? i just gotta go with the flow .. and i'll never leave him .. no matter what .. only death break us apart :') ..

Thomas :')

U see that punk guy up there ? His name is Thomas .. Between me and him, there's a long story ..

   When i first saw him, which was early this year .. i had a crush on him .. yeah .. even if i was still heartbroken with that Iric guy, but hey, cant i give my heart a break ? so i had a crush on him for like 2 months .. He's the older bro to my new boyfie, which i will write later ;) .. hehe .. before i met his lil bro, i had a crush on this big bro .. for me he's caring and such .. but he ignores me -.- haha .. Then i found out that he was dating one of my schoolmates .. huhu .. but i make dono .. haha, after that, they both broke up after a month .. i saw him fighting with her, she said that she dont want him anymore .. i can see pain in his eyes .. and i was like, you belong with me~ hahaha ..

  Then, he's single again .. by then i still havent made any contact with him .. just a smile :) i was like : maybe i have a chance .. so i did try, me and my friend (who also had a minor crush on him) tell him that we liked him .. he said it was a joke .. so that made me felt heartbroken .. but i wont give up .. But, one fateful day .. He asked out my other friend( who has no crush on him) .. i was like: NOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but she said yes .. and that was it .. my feelings for him, just gone .. i felt blank .. but luckily, i quickly moved on from that ..

   After my friend and him started going out, starting from there, we started to become close .. to me, as long as i can talk to him .. that enough .. But it turns out, im closer to him than his GF .. we started a bond .. more than a friend, like brothers and sisters .. day by day, we trusted each othe than anyone else in the gang .. im freakin' close to him .. its weird not to see my friends jealousy .. we goofed each ther out .. we're like soulmates .. i've gotta admit that i still have a bit of crush on him that time .. 

   But, all of that comes to and end .. when his lil bro asked me out .. after that, we never talked to each other actually .. cause both of us are busy with our partners .. slowly, i fell in love with his lil bro .. and i slowly got to forget him .. until one day, i feel an urge to play with him .. so, he asked a candy from me, and i got the last one, i put it halfway in my lips and dared him to take that half .. but, i knew he wouldnt do that .. and he just acted on doing that .. then, my boyfie saw that .. i felt guilty .. he asked for a breakup .. i felt so heartbroken i cursed at everyone i know .. i was so damn hurt .. and, there he was asking about why we broke up .. i just told him nothing ..

  Then, all the truths came out .. when he was back in his hometown .. he confessed that he actually liked me in the 1st place .. then i said, why did you choose someone else ? he said: i dont know .. but what i know is i regretted dating your friend .. i actually was going to pick you .. but my friends keep on asking me to take your friend .. i hope right now you can accept me .. i really like you .. everytime that we joke together, its the only way for me to be close to you .. even if as friends .. i cried after i heard this .. but, i can only say that, why youre soo late ? youre wayy too late .. if youre a month earlier .. i couldve accept you .. but, you just too late .. 

He said: okay .. im sorry for everything .. i i had known that you liked me .. i wouldve choose you .. did you know that i almost killed my own brother for you ? I was like: WHAT !?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??! but i dont entirely belive it .. so i asked his bro, and he said yes .. OMFG .. 

   Hmm .. those only remain as memories .. my feelings for him .. and his feelings for me .. but, it will be a good reminder of how my first crush, has a crush on me too :') now, we remain as friends .. not as close as old times .. but, we still talk about things .. i trust him .. me and him will only remain as friends .. now and forever .. we dont have JODOH katakan .. i accept that .. but, if i pandey get married wif his bro, i want him to be the best man .. cause for me he is the best man i ever met :)

God, i realized that i'm really in love with him :')

  Goshh .. ku nng bruk sedar eh, ku mena2 sayang ngan nya .. ku nng mena2 dh jatuh cinta .. paduhal lamk 2minggu ku gerek ngan nya, aku nng pikir tok cinta monyet .. now, i just fell in love with him aie ! all this happen because of his accident .. the story:
   
   Mek org tek lepak2 lah, as usual .. kakya nya ngan abang nya mancal2 mok bebukut sia ctok, then, kaki nya bedarah ntam kacak .. lam ati ku tyme ya like: noo ~ .. ku pun siktauk juak pahal eh .. just tetiba .. so, sebagai gerek nya, aku mbak nya g umah( untung sikda orang tyme ya) alu merawat nya .. haha .. lam ati ku just awww .. bangga ku tyme ya .. and nektok bruk ku sedar ku nng dh mena in love ngan nya .. really; 100% .. I love him now :D 


   Ku akan cuba to make him appy, no matter what .. after this incident, ku dh mcm mok menghargai nya .. Im lucky to have him as my Boy <3 ! ku cayunk nya ! >.< huhuhuhu

Im sorry Mel :(

Mel,


IM SORRY I TOOK ALL YOUR HAPPINESS


IM SORRY I TOOK WHAT'S RIGHTFULLY YOURS 


AND,


IM SORRY I TOOK HIM AWAY FROM YOU .. 




 I never meant to do that .. but i know you hate me, you always give me a fake smile .. a fakr laugh .. you've grown to think i might take all of your happiness .. well, im sorry .. if you really want him to be happy, let him go .. please ? let him be happy with me .. i cant be happy if youre not .. come on mel ..


IF YOU LOVE HIM, LET HIM GO :/

Im Afraid To Love Him :(

Duuuu ! aku nng mena sayang gila babi ngan nya .. p ku sik berani mok mena fall in love gik ehh .. macam takut ba .. maklum lah .. ku dh asa bah gney mun kita sayang ngn org ya, p nya mempermainkan kita .. really hurts u know ? errggghhh .. mena2 blurr now .. and one more reason, kawan ku masih sayang ngan nya .. nya terus terang mdh ngn aku: tyme ku 1st tyme ku dgr ko gerek ngan nya, ati nng sakit tyme ya .. bencik ku ngan kau .. lam ati ku: pahal laa kau mesti terimak nya ?! .. 


   Aku paham gney asa mun kebahagiaan yg kau opernah milikki nektok dh diambik .. p kdg2 aku sikpat nak madah apa2 ..  sometimes, ya lah cabaran idup .. ku tauk nya lebih gik sayangkan gerek ku dri aku .. but, cinta sikpat dipaksa .. kdg2 aku pun mok juak lepaskan nya .. p aku sikpat .. aku pun sikpat jadi tamak .. nektok semua org mdh aku PERAMPAS .. makseh jak .. u dont know the real story .. 


  Sapa yg rapat ngn aku, tak org da ngga nak gney nya layan gerek nya dlok ? bagaikan kawan .. dh ya tiap2 ari mdh sorry bab sikpat layan nya tegal nya sikmok org ngga .. pakah bodo gerek dakya ???nektok kau ngga aku date ngna nya kau jeles ? kau dlok org guz2 mok agk ko, kau lari ! nak ne ? u treat him like shit ba .. mun ko mena sayang ngn nya tunjuk la .. dh laa jarang cakap ngan nya, aku sebagai kawan kau gik dpt dikira patah perkatann yg kau pdh ngan nya .. 


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