the most sweetest day everr

Awwwwww ! today was just like a fairytale .. and aritok juak juak molah ku sedar that there's more to him than meets the eye .. apa yang lamak tok ku sangka, SALAH !

   the 1st, ku sangka nya sik PRO main badminton .. paduhal, nya jak yg rilek nangkap bulu tangkis ya .. aki gik terkepai2 tauk sik ?? heheheheh .. p best dowww mai ngan nya .. and ku pun perasan cgek. lamal tok ku sik pernah nangga nya senyum dpan ku, p kak ku ngga nya senyum eh, CAIR bis ku !!! awwww .. lam aty ku mdh: kenak laa kau apat mpuan kdk aku ? xD

   2nd, he's SUPER FAST dooo ! hahahaha .. ku nangga nya main bol nak, lajuu nya lari eh >.< ndak ku maok berkepung ngan nya .. hahahaha .. awwwww ya nang hotsetap akuuu :D

   3rd, aku nang SIKTAUK yg nya ada 'pantak' ehhhh ! bgi aku mun lakiey da pantak kacak bh .. honestly, i have no idea yg nya ada pantak ehh .. ku nangga nya bkak baju tyme nya main bol .. lam ati ku DUHAL .. hahahaha xD p nya kurus kereng -.-

   4th, he's an darn awesome kisser :3 hahahahahahahahh xD

my dear, i love you !

remember my badboy ? well, things didnt work out so well until we have to take our separate ways .. but, im gonna tell you about my old time crush .. 

    I remember that day .. when me and my friends just hang around on a stairway, eh kakar biasa jak ! susah .. daktok .. mk org lepak bah .. kakya, da biak limpas k motor .. ku nangga muka nya .. eh, ensem wak eh ! bolah dikatakan sebulan nya jadi pujaan hati ku .. ku selalu nangga nya  limpas .. dh ensem .. puteh .. awwww .. p tyme ku lowm tauk sapa nya sebenarnya ..

   Dah bpa bulan ya, ku sik nangga nya gik .. ku pun rasa hampa .. p cdak lakiey knl nya .. ku tyk lha sapa namanya .. alu cdak nya mdh namanya wat .. ku pun oww .. kakya, ku bruk tauk yg sebenarnya nya bisu .. aku nang sik cayak .. nya perfect bh bgi ku ! but, nobody's perfect bh .. aku pun try mok lupakkan bnda ya .. after bpa minggu, ku da ngga nya gik .. this time  nya selalu lepak rah taman .. ku sik juak lalek gilak .. p xtauk lah bena ka sik, lamak nya lepak cya cdak kawan ku mdh nya mala layap ngga ku .. aku buat derk bab ku sik suka nya gik bh .. 

   kakya, incident tok lah molah ku ngan nya gerek .. hee .. tyme ya mek org lepak rah rumah thomas .. ku ngga nya di depan pintu nak, alu ku mdh ngan kat daktok: kat !!! wat datai !!! .. time ya ku ngan kat pun gila2 kan nya bh .. tyme ya kat mabok .. so ku mengambil inisiatif utk kakar ngan  nya .. ku suka ngaco nya .. exen ku mdh, ko jadi gerek ku k ? nya 1st nang heren bh ngga ku .. ak just 'playing friendly' bak kata org .. p sikit demi sikit .. ku pun asa suka ngan nya balit .. ehemmm

   pada suatu malam, aku di hospital .. check-up paru paru ku .. every month .. tetiba jak ku ngga mcj ku .. nya indh text ! hee appy ku .. dh ya memperkenalkan drik la mek org .. nama benar  nya nang kacak ! Zechariah Samuel ! aaaaaawwwww <3 mesej punya mesej, ku pun ter-fall in love ngan nya .. alu laa gerek mek 2 .. sampey nektok .. nya seorang penyelak ! huhuh .. hahaha .. walaupun di mata tak org nya sik perfect, p bagi ku, he's totally perfect ;) tok lah 1st time pujaan hati ku jadi gerek ku .. dream come true bh .. i lovee him ! :D

Badboy/Laling/chinta mek ! :D

Hahahahaha ! panjang lawh title kue ya .. p di sebalik title ya eh, kompom tak org sik cayak betapa susah mok dapatkan biak tok .. >.< aku ngaku ! hahahahah .. (btw, muka nya lam gambar sik kacak eh .. p REAL eh, tok ku cta)


  This is Maling .. or his real name Aley .. but i usually call him LING .. hee .. this story is also long lah .. hahahah .. the lil bro to Thomas :) .. Beofre he asked me out, he also had a super huge crush on my friend .. but my friend rejected him .. at that time, i was not interested in anyone( also i have a crush on Thomas) hehe .. Selama nya 2 gerek eh, aku lah tunggul akayu, ubat nyamok nya 2 .. hahahaha .. that time i never even payed attention to him .. yes i know, he's HOT (dont know about you) but nahh .. 


  After 1month they broke up .. but i can see he still love my friend .. he always do something for her .. i only feel sorry for him eh .. but no love yet ;) .. dh ya nya gerek ngan biak kecik .. Mentut namanya .. part ya lah ku sakit aty gegilak .. mala jk sik layan gerek nya ! dah ya gerek dirampas nganok org .. buduh ! bpa lamak nya 2 .. ku pun siktauk camne laki ya tahan juak ngan mpuan dakya eh -.- ..  then he want to end this reltionship .. then i never expected this to happen .. he suddnely aksed me out like this : " err, Nurul (they used to call em by my 1st name)" so i looked back and said: "yes?" then he said: "if i ased you to be my gf, will you accpet that ? " .. my eyes popped out instantly .. i thought he never asked me .. haha, after all, he used to date all "hourglass" and "model-potential" like women .. why would he choose me ? i just said: "hmm, i'll give you the awnser tomorrow" and left ..


   That night, i feel like im in a dream .. but, my mind says:"hey, just give it a try" .. hehehe .. The next day, its raining .. but we continued at a hut near the park .. so, all of my friends and his friends know about this .. and keep on bragging to see us both like, holding hands, hug, or even a kiss .. i was like: what ?!?! i havent accept him yet .. and suddenly, he kneeled in front of me, and said: "will you be my girlfriend?" all of crowds go wild with their YERRRR NURUL, YERRR MALING, STEADY POK, PADAH JAK I DO SIA ! i was embarassed and just said:"emm, on jak lah" .. hahaha .. so, that day was our 1st date, a rainy day .. cun juak tyme ku mbk sweater .. so we shared .. i cuddled him dehh ! >.< all of the other "party people" has their own partner ;) .. it was sweet eh .. when i got home, i feel like awwwwwwww ! hahaxx, but i didnt kiss him .. yet 
   
   The second day, uhh .. our school held its sports month .. me and my buddies was getting ready for practise .. before i went to Kath's house, i bumped into him .. and he said: "hey, where r u going" .. i just replied : "to kath's house" and left .. the butterflies in my stomach keeps on growing .. haha, then Kath said, hey, "ur boyfie's joining us today .. hope you dont mind" .. i was like: WHAT ?????!!!!! MALU LAH AKU !!!!!!!! .. Eventually i didnt run that day .. hehexx :P


  The here comes the sad part .. he started ignoring me .. he never talks to me until the time that i wanna go home .. he sends me and gave me a kiss .. but, day by day, i realize that im drifting away from him .. yes, we do break and make-up again .. but, it seems that he dont wanna give me his entire heart .. i know and i saw his past relationships and how it ends .. but, im not gonna break his heart .. i guess he dosent trust me yet .. its ok :')


  After 2months of On and Offs, we broke up, real time .. i was frustrated .. for one week, i didnt see him .. anywhere .. i started to miss him .. i regretted everything that i have done to hurt him .. but, for me its too late .. then one day, i saw him .. while my head is feeling a bit tipsy because i over drank my vodka, but i saw him .. it just sent me tears to my face .. he looked at me and slowly walk towards me .. and i run to him and just gave him a hug .. i cant stand being alone anymore .. luckily, he replied my hug .. i was so desperate that time .. i need him .. then, i didnt remember anything .. I woke up, and realized that im in his arms, at his house .. just me and him .. he said: "you drink too much" .. i cant carry on and continued to hug him .. i murmured:'please dont leave me, im sorry i didnt do anything to work out in this relationship" .. he just said:"i forgive you" .. and he gave me, one last kiss .. before he leaves for his hometown .. that last kiss meant everything to me .. 


   After he left, he never contacted me .. except for Thomas .. He told me that actually Maling has a wife-to-be .. he was going to get married, but my mom refused cause they were young .. I was a bit scarred about that .. but i just smiled .. Then, a soon as im in a brink of giving up hoping for him, he came back .. he called me that night and told me: "hey, i still love you, you know ? i never wanted to leave you .. but, something made me leave you .. i never intended to let you go .. i suffer cause im loosing you .. i feel like i wanna kill thomas because he was saying that youre his new crush .. for you, i would kill my own brother .. cause, i dont wanna loose you anymore .. and if it takes to give up my life, i would .. for you .." Im shocked ... i asked him: why do you always think about yourself ? you know how i felt when youre not with me ? HELL .." He said: well, im gonna ask you this .. and im surely sure, that this will be my last proposal to you; will you come back to me ? and be with me, forever ?" i said:"Are you kidding me ? bpa lamak dh ku tunggu ko sebut ya ! yes"
   
  And from that day on .. i never even broke up with him .. wow .. a whole month .. he always put a smile on my face .. even if we fight .. we shed tears for each other .. he cried for me when he knew that i was slapped by my mummy .. and i cried for him, when hear his cough .. yes, the truth is he has an illness .. that made him short tempered .. no matter how many time he hurts me accidentally, i forgive him .. and he will cry cause he's been mean to me .. but i only say its ok .. after all in this relationship of course we have to face many problems right ? i just gotta go with the flow .. and i'll never leave him .. no matter what .. only death break us apart :') ..

Thomas :')

U see that punk guy up there ? His name is Thomas .. Between me and him, there's a long story ..

   When i first saw him, which was early this year .. i had a crush on him .. yeah .. even if i was still heartbroken with that Iric guy, but hey, cant i give my heart a break ? so i had a crush on him for like 2 months .. He's the older bro to my new boyfie, which i will write later ;) .. hehe .. before i met his lil bro, i had a crush on this big bro .. for me he's caring and such .. but he ignores me -.- haha .. Then i found out that he was dating one of my schoolmates .. huhu .. but i make dono .. haha, after that, they both broke up after a month .. i saw him fighting with her, she said that she dont want him anymore .. i can see pain in his eyes .. and i was like, you belong with me~ hahaha ..

  Then, he's single again .. by then i still havent made any contact with him .. just a smile :) i was like : maybe i have a chance .. so i did try, me and my friend (who also had a minor crush on him) tell him that we liked him .. he said it was a joke .. so that made me felt heartbroken .. but i wont give up .. But, one fateful day .. He asked out my other friend( who has no crush on him) .. i was like: NOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but she said yes .. and that was it .. my feelings for him, just gone .. i felt blank .. but luckily, i quickly moved on from that ..

   After my friend and him started going out, starting from there, we started to become close .. to me, as long as i can talk to him .. that enough .. But it turns out, im closer to him than his GF .. we started a bond .. more than a friend, like brothers and sisters .. day by day, we trusted each othe than anyone else in the gang .. im freakin' close to him .. its weird not to see my friends jealousy .. we goofed each ther out .. we're like soulmates .. i've gotta admit that i still have a bit of crush on him that time .. 

   But, all of that comes to and end .. when his lil bro asked me out .. after that, we never talked to each other actually .. cause both of us are busy with our partners .. slowly, i fell in love with his lil bro .. and i slowly got to forget him .. until one day, i feel an urge to play with him .. so, he asked a candy from me, and i got the last one, i put it halfway in my lips and dared him to take that half .. but, i knew he wouldnt do that .. and he just acted on doing that .. then, my boyfie saw that .. i felt guilty .. he asked for a breakup .. i felt so heartbroken i cursed at everyone i know .. i was so damn hurt .. and, there he was asking about why we broke up .. i just told him nothing ..

  Then, all the truths came out .. when he was back in his hometown .. he confessed that he actually liked me in the 1st place .. then i said, why did you choose someone else ? he said: i dont know .. but what i know is i regretted dating your friend .. i actually was going to pick you .. but my friends keep on asking me to take your friend .. i hope right now you can accept me .. i really like you .. everytime that we joke together, its the only way for me to be close to you .. even if as friends .. i cried after i heard this .. but, i can only say that, why youre soo late ? youre wayy too late .. if youre a month earlier .. i couldve accept you .. but, you just too late .. 

He said: okay .. im sorry for everything .. i i had known that you liked me .. i wouldve choose you .. did you know that i almost killed my own brother for you ? I was like: WHAT !?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??! but i dont entirely belive it .. so i asked his bro, and he said yes .. OMFG .. 

   Hmm .. those only remain as memories .. my feelings for him .. and his feelings for me .. but, it will be a good reminder of how my first crush, has a crush on me too :') now, we remain as friends .. not as close as old times .. but, we still talk about things .. i trust him .. me and him will only remain as friends .. now and forever .. we dont have JODOH katakan .. i accept that .. but, if i pandey get married wif his bro, i want him to be the best man .. cause for me he is the best man i ever met :)

God, i realized that i'm really in love with him :')

  Goshh .. ku nng bruk sedar eh, ku mena2 sayang ngan nya .. ku nng mena2 dh jatuh cinta .. paduhal lamk 2minggu ku gerek ngan nya, aku nng pikir tok cinta monyet .. now, i just fell in love with him aie ! all this happen because of his accident .. the story:
   
   Mek org tek lepak2 lah, as usual .. kakya nya ngan abang nya mancal2 mok bebukut sia ctok, then, kaki nya bedarah ntam kacak .. lam ati ku tyme ya like: noo ~ .. ku pun siktauk juak pahal eh .. just tetiba .. so, sebagai gerek nya, aku mbak nya g umah( untung sikda orang tyme ya) alu merawat nya .. haha .. lam ati ku just awww .. bangga ku tyme ya .. and nektok bruk ku sedar ku nng dh mena in love ngan nya .. really; 100% .. I love him now :D 


   Ku akan cuba to make him appy, no matter what .. after this incident, ku dh mcm mok menghargai nya .. Im lucky to have him as my Boy <3 ! ku cayunk nya ! >.< huhuhuhu

Im sorry Mel :(

Mel,


IM SORRY I TOOK ALL YOUR HAPPINESS


IM SORRY I TOOK WHAT'S RIGHTFULLY YOURS 


AND,


IM SORRY I TOOK HIM AWAY FROM YOU .. 




 I never meant to do that .. but i know you hate me, you always give me a fake smile .. a fakr laugh .. you've grown to think i might take all of your happiness .. well, im sorry .. if you really want him to be happy, let him go .. please ? let him be happy with me .. i cant be happy if youre not .. come on mel ..


IF YOU LOVE HIM, LET HIM GO :/

Im Afraid To Love Him :(

Duuuu ! aku nng mena sayang gila babi ngan nya .. p ku sik berani mok mena fall in love gik ehh .. macam takut ba .. maklum lah .. ku dh asa bah gney mun kita sayang ngn org ya, p nya mempermainkan kita .. really hurts u know ? errggghhh .. mena2 blurr now .. and one more reason, kawan ku masih sayang ngan nya .. nya terus terang mdh ngn aku: tyme ku 1st tyme ku dgr ko gerek ngan nya, ati nng sakit tyme ya .. bencik ku ngan kau .. lam ati ku: pahal laa kau mesti terimak nya ?! .. 


   Aku paham gney asa mun kebahagiaan yg kau opernah milikki nektok dh diambik .. p kdg2 aku sikpat nak madah apa2 ..  sometimes, ya lah cabaran idup .. ku tauk nya lebih gik sayangkan gerek ku dri aku .. but, cinta sikpat dipaksa .. kdg2 aku pun mok juak lepaskan nya .. p aku sikpat .. aku pun sikpat jadi tamak .. nektok semua org mdh aku PERAMPAS .. makseh jak .. u dont know the real story .. 


  Sapa yg rapat ngn aku, tak org da ngga nak gney nya layan gerek nya dlok ? bagaikan kawan .. dh ya tiap2 ari mdh sorry bab sikpat layan nya tegal nya sikmok org ngga .. pakah bodo gerek dakya ???nektok kau ngga aku date ngna nya kau jeles ? kau dlok org guz2 mok agk ko, kau lari ! nak ne ? u treat him like shit ba .. mun ko mena sayang ngn nya tunjuk la .. dh laa jarang cakap ngan nya, aku sebagai kawan kau gik dpt dikira patah perkatann yg kau pdh ngan nya .. 


  Like what people say:

If You  Really Love Someone,
You Love Him Enough To 
Let Him Go :')
   

Lalalalalala im in love lalalalala :P

Yoyoyoy ! hahaha .. lamak sik update blog ehh .. hahaha .. nektok im backk ! dh la line kdk sial juak >.< kite sabo je lah .. hahah .. dlm tajuk blog ku ats yar, YEYE .. ku dah da SWEETHEART baru ddoooo ! .. hahaha appy giler ku tok .. from 30 Jun 2011 .. harhar .. ku sik sangka juak nya ajak ku gerek ba .. ahahahaha .. so just terimak jak lah .. mun sikda jodoh pa boleh buat nak ? hmm .. namanya is: NE LEH PADAH .. hahahaha .. ada2 masa ku padah .. p asa ku hubungan ku ngan nya nng ada banyak cabaran dooo .. dh la nya ex kawan/BFF aku pun .. kakya, banyak org sik suka aku ngn nya .. BANTAHAN katakan .. :( sabar jak .. p ada juak org appy laa .. nya gwek ngn kawan ku dlok sikjuak mesra ne .. kawan ku cam buat derk jak depan nya .. aku gik heran ngga .. so, its my turn .. ku mok coba bahagiakan nya .. hehehe ,, :P .. hahahahaha .. mek duak nng sik rapat .. ku lebih rapat ngan abang nya .. abang nya gerek ngan kawan ku juak .. hahahaha .. terer sik mek org milih kapel ? hahahahah .. p best eh .. sik onah ku gwek dekat2 .. har har :P chow ! lak poret gik ! :D

A letter to BVB ;)

YOha ! haha, guys check this out ! i wanna make a pledge so that BVB would come to malaysia .. but i know they'll never read it .. iys just for imagination .. imagineif they read this ? Im gonna be so outta my mine duhh !

Dear BVB,
  Umm .. We absolutely love you guys ! You guys simply rockk ! Hehe .. I really love all your songs .. I mean really, i sing Knives and Pens n Perfect Weapon in showers, and sing Carolyn n The Morticians Daughter as my lullaby to sleep :) .. Not lying .. hee~ Please come to Malaysia ! Sarawak to be precise .. that's the state that im staying at .. I dont know if i'll have the money to go to Kuala Lumpur if you go there .. But if i can, i'll make sure that i'll have the front seat to see you guys and get a chance to take pictures with you guys .. I've never been to concerts before .. but, I'll make you my 1st concert if you guys would go here .. :(  I really want to see you guys perform :( If you guys have a chance to go here, Lemme know ? haha .. then i'll do anything to get money ;) even  if i have to work part-time .. ngehehe .. i've been driven by BVB's music to do so .. After i told my besties about how damn great you guys are, they started to like you guys too .. well not entirely LOVE you guys like i do .. haha, they're still new .. The lyrics in your songs has soo much meaning to me until i cant interpret it in words .. And your music is just Beautiful .. I know im spoiled over you guys .. but just let it be .. its better than spoiling to drugs right ?  Haha, i just adore you guys too much .. whle other girls at my age spoils over Justin Bieber .. I used to be a Bieber fan .. but, after i met you guys .. the Bieber fever have just disappeared .. Now i have ASAD (Andy Six Addiction Disorder) and BVBAD (Black Veil Brides Addiction Disorder) .. haha .. Err .. okay, i think i've been bragging too much over you guys until i bore you guys out .. hehe .. And remember my pledge: PLEASE COME TO KUCHING, SARAWAK, MALAYSIA ? Pretty please ? HEHE .. So long for now ;)
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                

Carolyn Lyrics

Halooo !  hayy yerrr .. bahaha! here's a lyrics or all my 10 followers .. -.-' .. ngee~ i love this song and im sure that you all love it too .. if you hate it then go and clean a toilet bowl or something :PP
  
Those times in life we learn to try, with one intention
Of learning how and when we'll die, but we cant listen
I wish to god I'd known that I, I didn't stand a chance
Of looking back and knowing why, or pain of circumstance
You're not alone
We'll brave this storm

So here's my song I wrote in time, when it was needed
Through pain of heart or loss of mind, your burdens lifted
You aren't alone just know that I, cant save our hearts tonight

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
And face today
You're not alone

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
And face today
You're not alone 

Hehehe .. Byee guys ;)

I've learned something in my life :)

Hey guys ? Zzup ? hehe, im kinda bored here .. -__- weather getting hotter .. its like living in hell now -.- but i know Hell's hotter than this :O .. haha .. I've learned something from all of my pain and sorrow from the breakup and waiting for him .. Its just like waiting for a dead tree to produce fruit again .. :/

   I've learned to forgive and forget :) .. Last time, i just cant except the fact that were over .. i know how stuck-up i am that time .. Now, i learned that there's no use waiting for a guy like him .. like what my friends say, He's USELESS .. I think i've made a fool of myself by crying tears out for him .. haha, i know one day that im gonna laugh about all the stupid things i've done ;)

   I personally think i'd rather love someone that's perfect like Andy Biersack even if he dosent know than to love a useless guy like him .. a womanizer, and everything thats bad about a guy all goes to him .. Yes i know it feels good to have a first date and kiss, but sometimes you've just gotta let go .. thats life .. now, i can finally let go of him little by little .. Thanks to my friends and God .. He healed my heart by letting meet an amazing guy like Andy .. i dont care if im that desperate .. As long as i can take my mind of him for a while ..

  I've been stressing myself so hard now lately .. scholl supposed to be great but for me its like hell .. at home, i just cant find peace .. When im outside, a can feel a tinge of peace .. i used to smoke, drunk, and do bad stuffs .. in other words, killing myself slowly.. but now, i can top all those things .. i feel that there's no use in doing those things .. my weight go down drastically that time .. but now, even if im getting fatter, im healthy ;)
 
   Hehe .. if i got more story then i'll tell you all kay ? for now, gtg byee!

Awwwwww ..

HERE'S A FULL BIO ABOUT MY LATEST ADDICTION ;)
• his full name is andrew dennis biersack
• Birthday 12/26/1990. 19 years old
• Born in cincinatti Ohio 
• Attended Ohio school of creative and performing arts 2003-2006. Graduated N/A
• He prefers andy six or 6 not sixx
• 6"2 
• He is atheist 
• He does smoke
• He is currently living in Hollywood California
• He is currently on tour 
• He is straight
• Past girlfriends include actress scout Compton and model hannah beth (he is single)
• He is the only original member of black veil brides
• Before black veil brides he was in a band called biersack 
• He started black veil brides in 2006
• He writes the music for black veil brides 
• He was bullied as a child (that's were most of the inspiration for his songs comes from)
• In school he wrote the words never give in on the inside of his hand to remind him of his strenghth
• He plays bass 
• Black veil brides got signed in 2008 in Ohio by stand by records
• He has naturally blonde hair
• One of his role models is Nikki Sixx from motley crüe 
• He came from a very catholic family and went to church regularly
• His twitter account is twitter.com/andysixbvb
• His YouTube account is YouTube.com/biersack. (WATCH HIS VLOGS!)
• His myspace account is myspace.com/andysix
• His formspring account is formspring.me/officialandysix
• Those are his real accounts not fan sites
• In his older pictures the letters SD was on them. SD stands for scout dean (his gf at the time)
• He majored in drama in high school 
• He was in the commercial for montanna meth (you can watch it on his YouTube)
• He frowns apon drugs and will kick out any band members that do drugs


Awwwhhhsss ! :D <3 <3 Andy :D

I Heart Andy Six :3

 Cun sik cun sik ? Hahaha .. No laa .. it will be a dream to me if i can be with him .. huhuhuh .. but, i can at least dream ? xD

Andrew Dennis Biersack (Andy Six)

   Isnt he cute ?!??!!?!??!?!?! He's ma newest boyfie <3 :3 haha, nahh kidding .. He's ma newest addiction .. his name is Andrew Dennis Biersack a.k.a. Andy Six ! Isnt he fine ~ hoho, he's a vocalist for a well known rock group called Black Veil Brides :) their songs are awesome ! I absolutely admire him .. he's hott ! Now im looking for a guy who has his styles .. HOTHOTHOT >.< I just cant stop thinking abt him :( haha .. byebye bieber and hello andy :D and more importantly he's a saggitarius like me :D waaa~

I need him .. As soon as possible ..

Why ? Kenak ? Pahal ? Kimennn da juak . .  Why ?? Seriously, I really cant forget him L . .  Bermacam2 cara ku dah coba tapi, makin sakit rasa aty ku . .  I just wish yang aku just shut down trus or amnesia . . So that i can forget my pain and sorrow that i’ve suffered . .  Really, Im not seeking for any attention . .  this is TRUE . . Every hour, every minute, every second, I struggle myself from crying because of my stupidity and selfish actions L . . If i can turn back on 6th December 2010, I wouldve never send that text .  .Because of my damn stupid mistake, I have ended a tie with someone whom i love more that i love my life . . Now, this is my balasan . . STUPID STUPID DIANA ! :’( Im really in regret right now . . I want him back .  . He’s like my soul . . without him, im lifeless . . That’s why I reject people . .  Im deeply sorry . . Its not that Im LAWA or anything, It’s just that I dont want you guys to suffer . . I cant be with someone that Im not in love with . . I really wish that he would come back to me :’( . . But, I know that’ll never happen . . Things will never be the same .  . Call me hypocrite, Selfish, anything you want . .  because, i dont care about it anymore . . I really miss him~, He’s my evrything, my heart,my blood, my soul . . My heart is still aching . . And, It will until the day he’ll be mine again :’( .  . The moment haunts me in my sleep, interfering with my studies and my enviroment . . God, please help me . . Im begging for Your guidance . . I want to be the old me again L . . A funny careless girl . . Now, everyday is an emotional day for me . .  Its like my mind is in haywire . . I cant think of anything instead of him . . I noticed my self changing . . Physically and mentally L . . Everytime i try to put him off my mind, the memories come to life .  . I cant belive my own mind sabotaged me . . I really want him back !!!!!!!!! I dont care a damn what people thinks about him anymore !!! He’s mine . .  He’s perfect for me ! And you guys cant judge him ! Im just really sorry that i’ve been so selfish and only thinking about myself and peoples comment about you L Im really SORRY . . Ive known that your not guilty . . I wish i could just killmysef right now . .  i know that in your heart,there’s only me until i broke it . . Im SORRY . . Please . . I cant suffer  anymore .  . I cant face the pain . . if i can send this to you,  i hope you understand . . Please .  Ku tauk bukan nya mudah  tuk kembali  . . My sweet dreams are shattered . . youreonce my sweet dream, but now,  your my perfect nightmare . . Your presence hauntse . . These wounds wont seem to heal, this pain is just to real, there’s just too much that time cannot erase . . Loosing you is like loosing everything that i once loved . . U left e and you took away all of my pleasant things in life . . WHY ???PLEASE . . I REAL

Geram Geram Geram !!!

Huh ! geram da jak aku dooo ....... nampak beno kekimakan laki ya !!! eeeee !!!!!!!!
    Gini story nya: ada laa budak sialan ya, nya suka aku .. p ku sik suka nya .. alu laa nya mdh drik nya nak terjun dri jematan tgal ku sik terimak "CINTA YG TULUS DAN IKHLAS" nya .. -.- .. aku nng sik suka kauu bodo .. ku anggap ko kwn jak .. guz dh ya nak ?!?!? dh ya tauk pa dpolah biak ya ? nya pg pdh ngn seluruh warga sikutaukcney yg aku tok GEREK nya ! wtf ?!?!?!?!? Shitt aie .. geram sik mun biak polh tak org dakya ?!
  Ya bruk cgek, tok ada gik .. tyme ku blit mok msok rumh .. cun2 geng nya lepak ujong lorng ku, alu nya teriak:DAYNA KU SAYANG KAUU ! Arrrrrrrrgggggg !!! DH JUAK TYMNE YA APAK KU GIK ATOR KETA !!! Matey !! tp nasib nya sik dgr !! aku sik mampu berbuat apa2 .. berik jak laa jelingan maut .. heh ! HOT naa jak ku tyme ya .. eh, mun org sik suka kau, boh mok terhegeh hegeh nak mdh cmya kay ? mkin ko pdh dakya, ko xkan dpt aku .. malah ko akan dpt cap jari ku di pipi ko .. jgn ko peky ku sik berani ..
   Tak org mok tauk phl ku sik suka nya ?
1.Aku sikda perasaan ngn nya !
2. nya asa KAYA !
3. NYA MINTAK PUJI !!!
4.aku gik sayang ngn ex ku yg bernama Iric Dubblin
  PAHAM ? Yahh .. makin molah klu mnz mun cta hal tok eh . tp utk hiburan tak org bh .. Mun tak org ada hal daktok, tampa palak nya terus keh ? hahaha .. kay laa, ampey ctok jak cta ku .. byee~

:'(

Hmm .. another day, another story .. but first, the truth that i want to confess; im getting a lot more rebellious now .. i dont know why .. but, everytime when i feel irritated, i just wanna scream .. i dont even know .. im really in an unstable condition right now .. mentally .. and its all because of the enviroment right now .. im feeling like fate is being so cruel .. to not let me have him .. and the thing that goes around my head is WHY ? why ? i dont understand .. i want to love him again .. but why cant i ?!?!? i miss him .. i just need him .. i dont need everybody else .. i just want Iric Dubblin beside me again :'( .. why is everybody being so unfair to me ? why am i living this life ? the past is always haunting me .. i have to admit that i cant forget him .. all i can do is cry .. i cry when i miss him, i cry when i need him .. like now .. and i cry when i rewind back the past .. i just dont know what to do .. im not perfect like any superstars .. im not popular in school .. I wish i have never let him go .. i dont know i can suffer like this .. he's my precious boy .. even more valuable than a gemstone .. even if he's a but rough on the edges .. but i can shape it .. :') .. i promisa that i will change him .. when he's back with me .. i always think of him .. i will never forget the times we had together .. just, please rewind that time back now ? :'(

School life :D

From left to right: my besties till the end .. Lieya,Shaereen, ME !

Aww .. shaereen so cute !

Ignore me -______-

 I <3 YOU

BFF TILL THE END :D

    But one is gone .. that is Jesmine .. :( she move to miri ody .. hmm .. if got time i post again :)

Lens :)

Hello ! haha, da x ngga pic atas ya ? haha .. thats my new lens .. Grey colour .. Dh brapa lmk dh ku idamkan lens ya .. aher nya dpt juak !
   Ku bli lens ya RM30 jak .. murah kan ? haha .. klu bli ya kat ONEJAYA .. Tingkat 2 .. Lnes sia mcm2 ada .. hehe .. harganya RM30-RM50 .. KACAK2 .. MCM2 PATTERNS YA ADA .. ADA YG 3MONTHS .. ADA YG ONE YEAR .. ku pilih grey bab ku dh lejuk pke wana yg bukan natural .. ada kdk ALIEN .. hee .. hmm, pa gk nak digamboh tok ow ? haha ! k lah sampey ctok jak intro lens ku ya .. ada masa sambong gik ! tutu~

Why ? Why ?

Kenape ? Why ? Kenak ? Nama Kebuah ? 

  Well, tak org kompom mok tauk pahal tok berlaku ? mok tauk ? Hmm .. He make donno me .. :( Cdeh aty bunyau tauk sik ?? Pahal lahh nya molah derk jak ngn aku ho ?? sakit aty ! tp kenak ?

   Ok like this:

Aku ngn kwn ku, kath .. mek org kakar lahh tek .. ada terlintas d hati ku mok kol nya .. mok ajak nya eturn lahh konon .. Kol lahh tek ..

Kath:Hello ? ____ tok ka ?

____:aok sapa tok ?

Kath:Ohh ex ko mok jumpa ko ..

____:Ex ku ? sapa ?

Kath:Ehh, ex ko nok diam kat BDC ya bah ..

____: Sapa ?? Pdh nama 

Tyme ya kath xmok pdh nama ku bh ..

Kath:Ex ko nok selalu dating ngn ko ya bah !

____:Sapa ?????

Kath:Ingat sik ko ?? xkan ko sik ingat !

____: Sapa ??????? (tyme ya nya da kasar ckit ..)

Alu ku terus rampas npon ya ..

Me:Ingat sik ??

____:Ingat apa ?!?!?!

Me:ingat sik ko ngan aku ??  (aek mata ku berlinang tyme ya)

____: ingat apa ?!?!?

Then aku terus tutup tpon ya .. xthn gik ku .. nang nangis kdk biak kecik ku tyme ya .. Dri suara nya tek, ku tauk yg nya dh berubah .. nya bukan org yg ku pnah kenal n sayang dolok .. nya dh jdi dingin .. sombong .. pahal nya molah ku daktok ? pa dosa ku sampey nya lupakan kan aku dakya gilak ? sampey nektok ku gik solve the puzzle ya .. I will never give up on him .. NEVER 

Accident

Hey ya'll !!
pa kahabr tek ?? u all rindu tak sama i ?? hehe .. of coz laa kan ? well hari ini saye akan bagi u all know yg saya telah menimpa accident .. hahaha .. [a tak lah terok sangat .. mcm ni cte nya :
  malam tuu, saye dgn kengkawan lepak .. jam 10 mlm camtu .. memang best gile .. pastu, saya nak belajar naik motor .. memang lahh semua orang pandai naik .. tp saya nak bawak .. haa .. tu laa .. saya over press .. hehe .. tp skuter tu takde pa2 .. just side mirror je pecah ..
   'Tp saya tyme tu sempat pengsan kata kawan saya .. haiduu .. mmasa saya bangun tu .. say sedar kepala saya sakit sangat sangat .. huu .. pastu, pipi saya scrashh !!! OHH MYY GODD !!! kaki luka luka pula tuu .. malang betol laa nasib saya malam tuu .. tapi sekarang dh ok dh .. hemm hemm .. tapi, pada masa accident tu .. saya hanya terpikirkan die jee .. u all tau lahh sape 'die' tuu .. saya memang tak berhenti memikirkan pasal die .. AWAK ALL TAU LAHH SAPE TUU .. huhu .. pa yg dia buat sekarang ni kan ? huhu .. kay lahh .. Bunyau mau chau !!
                                                                                                                                  

Dayna Congek Bunyau :)

Hey, I Still Love You

Im here because i wanna tell you all that read this that ... IMISSHIM ... I really want him to know how i feel .. ku pun sik pasti bah sama ada nya maseh ada perasaan yang sama ngn aku ka sik  .. p ku mena mena harap doww .. baruk nektok ku sedar ku nang mena sayang ngn nya gilak gilak ! Huu~ xdgr lagu d masiv ku tok ?? xpnah laki dpt ngubah idup ku kdk nya .. xda orang selain nya yg ku akan sayang ..

   Aku maok eturn ngan nya sebelom terlambat .. mena mena ku mok eturn ngn nya .. sik ku dpt bayangkan nya diambik mpuan lain .. dapat dikatakan tiap tiap malam ku nangis .. dah pedih gilak asa aty ku .. Aku tauk bah  aku tok sik perfect .. Aku sedar bah status ku .. ku tauk bah, ku tok gemok, jaek ah, pa pa jak yg dapt di pdh jaek, semua ditujukan kepada ku .. P ku xkesah .. dolok masa kta 2 agik gerek, ko pikey ku sik sakit aty kah nangga kau bergambar ngan mpuan ya ?? SiAP SIAP DGN PEGANG TANGAN GIK YA ? ati gerek ne nok  sik sakit harr ? p ku mbk elek .. i never thought i would say this but : aku sanggup diduakan tauk sik ?? Kau jak gerek yang  pling sempurna buatku ..

   Walaupun sejaek and seterok ne perangey kau, p ku tauk aty  ko xsama ngan perangey kau ya .. Kau seorang yang caring gilak gilak ngan gerek, sopan gik ya walaupun dgn urg lain kau nyumpah mcm mcm .. p paling ku terharu ngan kau is bila ko kol aku rya .. so aku tanyak
aku:pahal tetiba tok ?
nya:xda pa pa, ku manas jak tok ..
aku: mun manas, kenak tpon ku ?
nya: sebab kau jak yg dapt nyuroh ku cool down ..
 awwww .. partya lah aku nang bena terasa lucky gilak gilak ! P kak ta 2 "sarak", things have changed.. ku selalu lemah tulang, hubungan ngan family gik xrapat kdk dlok .. ku cuba tuk text kau .. pa aty ku terasa takut gilak ! xlamak gik Valentines Day .. ku teringin gilak mok sambut hari ya ngan kau doww .. INGIN .. Ku xkesah, kau nyumpah ku kah, apa apa kah, asalkan kau kembali ngan aku gik .. Please lah ..
 
   Bukan aku bermaksud apa apa .. aku kedak ada firasat jak bah yg aku xkan idup lamak gik .. dah ku dgr berita ada org yg ku kenal meninggal tgal athsma, aku pun terpikir .. x lamak gik kali aku .. so, tolong lah .. its my last wish from you .. mungkin kta xda jodoh dunia tok .. p ne tauk di akhirat nak ?Sekiranya au pegi dolok, aku mok kau tauk,, aku akan nunggu kau d dpn pintu syurga .. ingat jak ya sayang .. aku akan sentiasa akan kenang kau walaupun aku dh sikda gik dalam dunia tok .. mun aku apat, aku akan jadi guardian angel kau .. aku akan sentiasa teman kau walaupun aku sikda jasad gik .. aku akan berdoa semoga semua dosa dosa kau diampun .. walaupun aku tok dah xda makna gik lam aty kau .. aku akan tetap sayangkan kau ..

   Selama aku, masih bisa bernafas, masih sanggup berjalan,  ku kan selalu memujamu .. Meski  ku tak tau lagi, engkau ada di mana, dengarkan aku, ku merindukanmu .. Iric Dubblin, i'll love you forever .. :')

Athsma ..

Heyy, umm .. u guys .. I have something to tell you .. I have a disease .. this thing has taken so many lives .. itsa silent killa .. u all can die on the spot because of it .. I just dont wanna die first .. i wanna be with him .. PLEASE ..

Asthma is a condition where there is increased responsiveness of the bronchi to certain stimuli.  As a result of this, there is narrowing of the airways, the lining of the airways also become inflamed and there is an increased production of mucus.  Usually the onset of this disease is during childhood and rarely after the age of twenty-five. Usually in about 30% of the cases there is a history of asthma in the family.

Trigger Factors
v House dust and dust mites
v Fur of warm-blooded pets, e.g. dogs, cats
v Upper respiratory tract infections
v Exercise
v Cold air
v Inhaling scented products
v Laughter
v Irritants such as smoke, paint or chemical fumes
v Drugs e.g. medication for high blood pressure such as beta-blockers, aspirin etc.
v Industrial causes e.g. cotton dust in textile industries, flour or grain in the baking industry,
    wood dust in carpentry
v Some food additives
v Emotional stress or excitement

Signs and Symptoms

Asthma is episodic.  In between attacks, especially in children, there may be no symptoms.  Prior to the attacks, sometimes the patient has sneezing, feeling of flatulence or restlessness and irritability.  The symptoms are usually worse in the early hours of the morning.  A patient could have one or more symptoms such as

v Coughing
v Wheezing – noisy breathing
v Tight sensation in the chest
v Difficult in breathing, especially breathing out
v Shortness of breath.  In smaller children the lower ribs will be drawn in during breathing.
v During repeated or severe attacks, the patient could become cyanosed (bluish, pale
    colouration) and the pulse becomes rapid.
Complication
Acute respiratory failure leading to death.
What You Can Do v A doctor should be consulted when you start wheezing the first time.
v Use a device called a peak flow meter to measure the air coming out of the lungs. Consult
    your doctor or pharmacist regarding how to use the peak flow meter.
v Take medicines as prescribed by your doctor.  Ask your doctor or pharmacist for the
    names of the medicines prescribed. Make sure you know which are the ‘relievers” and
    which are the ‘preventers’.

The ‘relievers’ are medicines, which act straight away and help you to breath more easily once an attack has started. If you have to use the ‘relievers’ too often, it means that your asthma is not controlled properly.  Examples of such drugs are salbutamol and terbutaline.

The ‘preventers’ are medicines that prevent you from getting an attack.  They are usually used or taken every day, e.g. steroids. When an asthmatic attack sets in, the ‘relievers’ drug must be taken first, because a ‘preventer’ will not stop an attack.  Examples of ‘preventers’ are budesonide and beclomethasone.

What The Doctor Would Do

It depends on the condition and how advanced the attack is.  Some of the things the doctor would do: -

v Give a bronchodilator – orally or via a nebuliser.
v Give oral medication or administer the medicine intravenously e.g. steroids, in severe
    attacks.
v Give medication in the form of an inhalation as they act quickly and cause fewer side
    effects and lower doses can be used.
v Give oxygen.
v Give antibiotics to treat any accompanying secondary infection.
v Teach the patient what to do for an impending attack and also advise about medication to
    be taken during an attack.
v Show how to use a peak flow meter to monitor the severity of the asthma.
v Tell what to do to prevent an attack.
v Refer to a hospital for further management, if necessary. New Habits
v Learn to relax
v Keep fit.  Do exercises to increase lung capacity.
v Wear an asthma identification bracelet.
v Have adequate supply of asthma medication.
v Avoid smoking.
v Avoid dusty and polluted environments.
v Avoid known ‘trigger’ factors.
v Keep the phone number of your doctor and the nearest hospital handy.
v Do not stop or start medicines without consulting your doctor.
v Consult your pharmacist or doctor if you have questions about any medicines taken or
    regarding the proper use of inhalers.

With proper management, an asthma patient can lead a normal life.

2011 babe

 Wowoooo !!! ITs 2011!!! Happy New Year Earth !!! HAHA, New motto, new life, everything new . . But, there's one thing that i cant change yet . . Its my feelings . . But, i will try n try to forget him :) I really hope !! About Cody . .  Yeah i still lovee him !! Eee, I'll support him no matter what ! Yaww !! Staring school, Ordinary . .  pain in the ass teachers, wannabes, actually nothing changed . .

   Now, in gonna tell u a story . .  its about my twitter .  . yeah i know its awesome but if ur not good eanough for "THEM", thay wont except u as thier clique . .  WHATDAFUCKK ?? Okayy, it started when  joined twitter .  . i like to retweet ppls tweets . .  Its a good thing ! Its like liking a status on facebook . . So, I retweet all of other ppls tweets on my timeline . .then, there's one woman i followed tweets: If that lil ass girl tweets me one more time ! I felt hurt . .  Terasa bah . . I think she should be grateful for me to tweet her all the time ! Kimen ! She thinks she soo cool just becuse bieber's following her~~ So ?? Its not like he's gonna come up to you and say 'Hey', looser !! Mothafuckking black old woman ! Just get on with ur life ! Im 15, what do you expect ?? A Nobel Prize ?? That just proved that ur not a true belieber ! Ur just being nice in front of bieber !! Useless bitch . . What happened to "BELIEBERS HELP BELIEBERS" motto ?? Beliebers are supposed to be untied not saying them fucking ass ! I bet my ass is better than urs ~! quality assured ! MAICIBAI LUU NEGRO RENGAT ! Yahh, alu nyumpah ku . .Boh mok sesen bah ! mati ko cnun !!

       hehehehe. .  See ya !!